I, being in prime menopausal territory - have been struggling with debilitating insomnia for the last two years (only one of the thirty-four symptoms!!). Ya, imagine, two freaking years of not sleeping properly. For the last two years I have been doing research, giving seminars (I learn by doing), going to doctors ad nauseum, and in short, losing my mind to hormonal upheaval. It's not been pretty, it's not been nice. Being sleep deprived has been the worst - in large part because without sleep there is no repairing and recuperating of your body, mind, spirit... let me just say, it sucks.
And through all the research and seminars and what have you, I always thought the route of HRT should be avoided. It seemed scary, you can't get two doctors to say the same thing, I didn't want a normal passage in life to be medicalized.... on and on... and then I caved. And truth be told, it's a damn shame to even put it that way. Why is there this mindset "out there" that doing something to help yourself is like failing. Maybe it's me? I don't know. I didn't care anymore, I decided to try HRT.
Which brings me to my gratitude... I am now sleeping, whole 6 to 7 to 8 hour stretches. It's unbelievable. I don't even get up to pee anymore!!!! That's a freaking miracle! It's crazy that hormones would do this. Absolutely crazy. Sleeping really changes things. It's hard to find that crabby place that used to greet me every morning. I don't wake up in tears anymore. I am not in pain when I wake up. My eyes open and I look forward to my day. My eyes open and I smile. My eyes open and I realize hey!, the last time they were open was about 11 pm last night!!! And truthfully, I feel overjoyed!
So there you have it. My deep and profound gratitude for the return of my slumber.
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